work for the past two days has been quite slack. i guess everyone goes through this so-called orientation phase. all i did was sit in my cubicle and read up on quality management procedure. occasionally my supervisor will bring me to tour the production site, explain to me the flow processes, and how the machines work. meanwhile, i hope that my brain starts to function quickly, and that i can regain some of the knowledge that i studied, so that i may apply them to my work.

i dislike promises. i don't like to make them, and i'm bad at keeping them. because most of the time, promises are just words i say to make you happy, promises are just words i know you want to hear. if i make them with no sincerity, i'd keep them with much less. plus, they are such a hassle. to remember all these little trivial things when i'm busy, or when i just want to spend my time more freely, makes me frustrated. 我没有不尊重， i just like a bit more spontaneity and freedom.

没有得比较的。truth is, everyone is treated differently. decisions are made based on many factors, as well as the feelings or state i am in. there is no logic to govern these decisions. to always have to argue makes me tired, and i wonder why must there be comparison. to you, i may not be treating you as importantly as everyone else. to me, you are just petty. and it has always been true, 拉风筝太紧时，总会感觉到张力。